21 hours

21 hours. What could this mean? Is it the time spent for me to finish a game? Nope. If you've read this blog since last year, you would know straight away what this is about. I've written a few posts similar to this one. So what is this about? It is about my abnormal sleeping habits.

21 hours is the amount of hours I slept. Yep, I slept for 21 hours straight. Unbelievable but if I am not mistaken, this is the 2nd time I did it. But this time is a bit different. I am feeling the backlashes. Now, after 20 minutes of waking up. I am feeling super hungry, super tired, super lazy, a massive headache is present as well and I AM STILL HUNGRY EVEN IF I JUST ATE SOMETHING!!

Aigoo, I'm just gonna leave it at that. What was my body thinking!! Sleeping like there's no tomorrow. Sigh.

Retarded Feelings = Growth?

I'm feeling quite retarded lately. I've been pissed at so many people and things lately and I've come to a conclusion that all these hatred could easily be placed somewhere else. I just went about it the wrong way. So what can I say? I feel retarded of course. All these nonsense I called problems are not that big either. Clearly, I got carried away and start blaming people because it was as easy as blinking.

Moral of the story is, I should have stopped to think a bit and think about the other people's feelings. I need to learn to read the situation in another perspective, not just mine. A bit late now but it is still better than never. Kinda weird that I'm writing something different than a rant here. Don't get confused, I'm still gonna write more rants but I'm just saying that I'll learn to make it more reasonable.

So in conclusion, less one sided rants based on just my feelings, and more rationalized rants. Still rants, but its gonna be more just and balanced. :)

Is it worth it?

Okay I've actually written around a page worth of words about how bad my day went but I guess God is still not satisfied. Somehow all that I've written was erased by a browser malfunction and there wasn't any auto save. Fuck my life. Sometimes life just gives you lemons. Super sour lemons at that. But I guess I have to get through it even if I have to put a sour face for it.

Oh well. FYI it was totally not worth it. The things I did in relation to what happened at the end of the day.

Food Writing?

Hello all, something other than a rant today. As you all know, I'm taking a course in Culinary Management and in the course, I've stumbled upon the topic of food writing. Kinda interesting to know that there are many things you could do by simply writing about food. I love to write, when it's in the form of a story or just a rant. Not when it is a report or some sort of academic article. So writing professionally seems a bit hard for me. But last week, in a class of mine, a lecturer of mine asked everyone in the class to write something related to food, preferably a food experience that we've had.

I'm a lazy student, doing work in class just doesn't fit my bill. But when you're in a class of 6, you don't have a choice. So write I did. The fact that I was writing was already amazing, what I managed to write in 15 minutes though, was a miracle. Kinda made me interested in writing a bit more than before.

I'm just gonna post what I wrote here. The title is shady because I just can't think of anything better. So here it is, Best Kebab Ever!

                                                                                                                                                                   
  A few minutes before sundown, right at the end of Ramadhan. I was eagerly waiting at the table full of food. One dish in particular was making me salivate beyond control. The chicken kebab.
  It's a simple dish but with the steam coming from it, the tatziki sauce dripping on the plate, and the bits of chicken visible from the side. It feels like it was teasing me.
  Almost fainting with hunger, I heard the announcement on the radio which signals the end of the fasting day. Without even thinking, I grabbed the kebab and shoved it into my mouth,
  The first thing I felt was pain. It wasn't smart of me to eat a piping hot kebab right way so I waited again, now feeling like the kebab was laughing at me. After rigorous blowing and patient waiting. I took another bite.
  The warm chicken paired with the garlic tatziki along with the crunchy lettuce was just like heaven at that moment. Without realizing, I finished the kebab and regretted not buying another. To this day, I can't think of another kebab that is better.
                                                                                                                                                                       

A very small piece but considering that I had only 15 minutes, I think I did pretty well. And it was my first try at it too! What do you think? Leave your comments below and if I get good responses, I might just pursue this as a career choice. Thinking too far ahead but I gotta start somewhere. Till then, that's all for now. Bye!

Why I hate group work

Hello again people, back for another rant, safe to say that this blog is just for rants now, might be more soon but I only have the mood to write when I'm badmouthing people. Yeah, as the title suggests, I hate working in a group. Specifically, I hate working in a group for assignments. I just hate it.

I know for a fact that I'm one of the laziest person ever, but I can vouch for myself that I still finish my work, on time too! But when it is for a group, I can't just let my laziness be the other people's downfall so I try to do some work early, even if I still drag on the work. But this time, I can't take it. Went to a meeting and the only thing we did there was copy and paste. Seriously, I could even do that in my sleep if I want to. What the fuck is that even worth doing for? You just say "Eee I don't wanna do this. Eee this is hard." and you can just dish it out on the rest of us. Okay I'm at fault for choosing the hard one because I don't trust these people but I'm sure you can relate.

I'm being an asshole here when I'm saying that I feel superior to them in this sense. So what if they read this. I'm voicing out my opinion. It's a free world the last time I check, people can still voice their opinions freely. Yeah I feel some ideas they give are dumb, yes I'm just being self-centered when I say that. Thinking that I'm always right doesn't help either. But when you actually see what we even did there, we might as well do it through text messaging, I would still be pissed, but at least I could be pissed in my room.

Fuck, I'm so furious right now. I respect people who can work in groups. Seriously. I'm smug, I know, and its a mistake as well to selfishly try to lead this group. No one wanted to do it, why the heck should I just let these people lead me to failure. Even if I fail this subject, I wouldn't mind since I tried, I can safely say that I try doing what I think is right and if that's not enough, guess all the bad things I said about myself is true. I might just be too smug to notice it.

*sigh* Can't really bother to care anymore. Even thinking of the small things you guys did are pissing me off. Maybe I really can't work with one of you anymore. Even the things I tried to do to help him are just being brushed off. Plus, he can even say I didn't try to help. (This will sound weird but I just need to say it) HELLO SIR! You yourself haven't been coming to class, I don't care if its because you had food poisoning, you woke up late or your toilet's occupied. You don't say that I didn't say anything when you yourself didn't even listen to what I said. "You didn't say anything also!" MY ASS!

That's the end of the rant for today. I'm just gonna let off some steam by cursing in the shower. Bye people!

Too DIM to SUM it all up

Hi all, back again for another food update. Today, I went and had dim sum with a bunch of my friends in Shark Fin Inn. If I were to sum it all in one word, it would be insufficient.

I had an embarrassing start, went to Shark Fin House instead of Inn and I had to put on my red face and walk out of that crowded place. It was cool though because 3 of my friends did the same mistake. Hah, talk about a funny experience.

Okay okay, lets get to the food. Sorry to say but I'm not the type of guy who likes to take pictures of food, especially when its not made by me. As you all know, I can't eat pork so I'm just gonna list down food that I ate because I'm too lazy to talk about it one by one.

(In no particular order)
1. Chicken Feet, (with some red sauce)
2. Prawn Chee Cheong Fan (I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SPELL THAT SHIT)
3. Some prawn thingy
4. Hakka something (Again, I don't know these chinese names)
5. Golden Sand
6. Some Lotus Paste bun
7. Egg tart!!!
8. A WHOLE LOT OF TEA

Lol, so yeah, it was not enough. It's not like everything's big, as it is called dim sum, everything comes in a small plate. With that, I can only eat so much. BUT THAT EGG TART WAS GOOD! I wish I can have more egg tarts... especially the Portuguese ones. But oh well, I didn't have to pay for the pork dishes so yay!

After that I went to Sensory Lab for some coffee. Had a bunch of random talks with my friends and it was awesome. Coffee and company, what more could anyone want? Wish they have these coffee establishments in Malaysia. Not some massive chain companies like Starbucks where kids go there to study because there's free wi-fi and air conditioning. If it's like that, I might as well go drink coffee in my house. Better internet and I would have a huge ass TV if I ever get bored.

Oh well, that's all for now. Thank for reading and I'll catch you later.

Almost officially dead, and the noob and the noober

Hello all again. It has been so long isn't it? Well, I'm just here to bitch about something because I can't do it on twitter or facebook. *laughs*

So let's get it started. This is a game rant so people who don't know what I'm talking about, sorry in advance. I just hate it when noobs, (the term noob is so loose here since I can't be called good yet) go complain about other players when they themselves aren't performing. It's like... complaining why the garbage man didn't pick up the garbage when you yourself didn't take the garbage out. It's just pointless. If you're so good like you say, why have I never seen you do as well as... hurm let me think for a bit.... that guy over there? The best among our team? or let's just even say me. If you're not doing that well in the game, even if you're so good and just having a bad day, just admit its your fault. Shit man, you're so low on the proficiency level of the game and you're talking like you're the best. I might be like you sometimes but at least I know my shits. Be a bit humble and just practice, you'll be amazed at how well you can do if you just shut it and just concentrate on your problems instead of others.

Sigh, such a long rant, and right after a long absence. I'm sorry. This blog seems like it's dying. I have tons of assignment due in these next few weeks so I might be writing more than what I should. Let's see. I forgot how calming writing here feels like. See you some other time then, if I ever write again.

Super Update (21/9/2012)

Hey all, back again after a sudden dissapearance. Is that spelled correctly? Lol I don't remember how to type after all this while. I'm suddenly itching to write again after so long. Why? Because I have an assignment due tomorrow morning and I have gone back to the way of the procrastinator. What is the best way to procrastinate other than by writing something totally unrelated to my work.

So let's do a huge recap of what I have been doing since the last time I wrote a post. Brace yourself, this is gonna be a long one.

1. My brother came to Melbourne (again).
2. Heng Kit's cousin came to Melbourne (again).
3. Cooking beef stew with Eugene
4. So called shopping trip with Chee
5. Work for Heng Kit's boss.
6. The present?

Okay, so lets start from number 1. My brother payed me a visit a couple of weeks back and I would say that it was one of the most exciting weekend I have spent with my brother. I haven't spend enough time with him and I certainly don't remember what we would even do for fun together. The biggest reason his second trip here to see me is different was because he actually bunked together with me. He used to stay at some backpacking hostel whenever he comes here and we could never spend enough time together because he has to go back before he gets really tired and all. NOT THIS TIME!

With all the time in the world, what do you expect we would do? Play games of course. We played Fifa 12 most of the time and we even played a season on Football Manager 2012 just for the heck of it. I lost, so I'm kinda bitter with that game. We also went shopping! Yes, shopping! I have waited for him for a few weeks because I have scouted the shops here and came up with a 'to buy' list. With his money around, I just went crazy. From the shopping trips, I bought a new bag, a pair of shoes, 2 pairs of pants, a belt, a t-shirt, a hoodie, a thumbdrive, and a whole lot of junk food. Thanks my brother, thanks a lot!

Even if he was here for only 4 days, I still felt lonely after he left, I realized that I really missed my brother and the time I spent with him was only a reminder of how I missed him. It wasn't enough but I have to get by with what I get, even if its not enough. But I didn't have to wait long to see another familiar face back in this apartment. Heng Kit's cousin, Shien, came to visit Melbourne, again, and he's bunking on my couch in the living room. He came a week ago and is still here in my apartment as I'm writing this. He's a cool guy, but one thing can't escape my mind, I wonder what he's actually doing here. I've asked him a few times and he gives a different answer every single time. I can't help but think that he's just running away from reality since he just finished his degree and is going to enter the real world soon.

Can't really say much about him because I've only managed to do a few things with him and that includes talking random shits including girls over dinner or lunch, beat him in Fifa 12 effortlessly, and watch tv mindlessly together. So lets go to the next update, the beef stew dinner with Eugene.

This one is a bit short but I think it is still a big thing that I've done in the past 2 weeks. Yup, so last monday, I went to Eugene's to cook up some dinner because I don't feel like eating at home alone. It was originally a  dinner outside but Eugene decided to save up some money by asking me to cook. "Okay" I said. To Woolworths, we went. There, I found out that Eugene is one of the weirdest picky eater ever. He doesn't like tomato based sauces! How can somebody not like those things, he also hates beans but that's not really important here. How could somebody hate tomato based sauces?! What do they eat? Most Italian food would be out of the question for sure. Okay enough about that tiny rant. So we bought stuff, cooked some beef stew and ate some beef stew. Oh yeah, I got stuck in his apartment till 11 too. All because of the fucking rain. Sometimes I just hate Melbourne weather.

To the next point! Which is... (Sorry for not remembering because I've written so much that I can't see the points anymore and I'm lazy to scroll up) The so called shopping trip with Chee! To start this update off, I hate you Chee for not pushing me hard enough to buy that 25 dollar hoodie from Mossimo! Argh. I need more Hoodies!!! Okay, with that out of the way, let's get to what I actually did. I actually started the day, the day before. Yup, because I didn't sleep. Why didn't I sleep? I don't know myself. So it wouldn't take a genius to know that I was super tired on that day. But I still stuck to the plan because I didn't want to ditch a friend (Aww so nice right?). Chee and I started the shopping trip with lunch in Manchester Press. Awesome bagels as always. Then we went to the South Wharf DFO. To my amazement, most of the shops there look like they are going to close some time soon. Most of the clothes shops are running out of clothes to sell and everything was super cheap. I regretted not bringing my brother there when I had the chance. Chee got a few items there and I have to say that it was worth it. Abercrombie and Fitch sweater for only 15 dollars? Where else can you get that?! After that, we went to some place to chill and we had dinner after. Simple stuffs.

The next day, I had to go to work. I was kinda sad to work on that day because it was Eugene's birthday and I had to miss out on the celebrations. Sorry Eugene! But emotions aside, working there was very rewarding. I was reminded on the importance of time management and also task managing. 2 major things a manager need to know well. I'm not gonna explain every single thing I did there. I'm too tired of this super long update and I need to end this quick. To sum it all up, I managed to pay myself back for the Steelseries headphones and still have 30 extra dollars to spend. I also learned some important skills and I get to see tons of beautiful girls. Both Whites and Asians. Shout out to that super pretty Asian chick with short hair and nice long legs with that douchy boyfriend. (douchy wasn't my word okay, somebody else said it so I'm just using his words)

So there you have it, a super long update which I bet, you didn't even read fully. Bet you missed the whole section where I said gibberish like doodle poodle woodle. If you were looking for it, I rest my case. Oh yes, the present update. Nothing much, school holiday starting after 5 more hours of class. I apparently have a music event to attend, two so called outings (dates) with 2 different girls. WHAT? DATES? WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY THAT EARLIER FAIZAL?! That's the thing, I would not say they are even interested in me and likewise, I mean in a relationship sense okay. So those two are... I could say obligation dates because they have not hung out with me for so long. Well who knows, I would like to update more but I have lost my interest in blogging again. If I'm not drowned by assignments I would love to write more so wish me the best.
Thanks for reading and I hope you all the best as well and Happy Friday!

Pumped, Weirded out, Crushed and Crushed again.

Hey all, how are you doing? Hope you are well and I'm pretty sure you're not doing as bad as I am right now. Like the title reads, today, I had a blast of multiple emotions, both good and bad. It was a roller coaster to be honest and it does not even involve something so lovey or heartbreaking or eewy or what ever. It is just a normal day with some messed up moments.

To get to the juicy bits of the story, one must start at the beginning. So today starts as a normal day, woke up pretty late, 20 minutes before class to be exact, took a shower, drank some coffee and I walked my tiny ass to class. There I was, in class, having the biggest eye bags one could have, stoning. Then Rui Wei walks in. As he was sitting down, I noticed something different about him, he had a hair cut. That thought was the beginning of the weirdest day of this semester, well the night I met the two Korean girls would still be at the top but this one is a close second.

The hair cut. Just a simple action but with dire consequences depending on the person. For me, it is a big deal. Yes, I care about my hair and how it looks, even if the rest of me isn't up to the satisfactory level. My hair was long and I had planned to grow but have failed to follow the plan countless of times due to different reasons. So I thought to myself, should I go for it? My hair have been quite troublesome lately so I just thought "What the heck, lets do it.".

To the hair salon I went. I decided to go to a korean hair salon which needs booking before hand so I had to go back to my apartment and find the number. Luckily, there was an opening an hour after I reach home so I went for it. With me being all pumped up, I walked to the place thinking it was going to be a good decision but I guess my luck wasn't that good because it rained half way through my journey. To my amazement, the sky cleared up right after I set foot into the salon. So okay, I'm in the salon thinking of what to say to the hair dresser once its my turn when I had the weirdest thought, "Lets just shave one side of the head and leave the rest long!" said my brain.

What did I do? I followed subtly because that is my brain and I have to follow what my brain says. Even with the weird decision, I have to say that it looks kinda good. Still kinda weirded out but I'll manage. Now that the weirded out part is done, lets get to the crushed part of the story.

So I went back home and cooked some dinner, nothing major there. After dinner though, I got an e-mail from my Gastronomy lecturer regarding my first assessment. I have to admit that I  thought I did a good job with the assessment and was going to get at least a credit, if not, distinction. Boy was I wrong, so wrong. I only got a measly pass. There goes my self confidence. But that's not all, she even wrote some comments that kinda hurt my feelings a little bit. I know I should take it as guidance and not take it to heart but words hurt. To my amazement, I wasn't the only one who got this low ass mark. The rest of my housemates got pass as well and we had a long talk about how bummed we were.

Now, I'm in my room, writing this post to release some pain off my chest. I seriously thought that this subject was 'my' subject. I felt like everything connected when I'm studying this subject. Guess I'm not doing it right. Crushed as hell now and I just realized that I have two more assessments for this class. The next one is a whopping 50% of the total subject. With all this negativity, I doubt I'll pass this subject. Sigh.


ps. I'm not even sorry for this long post. If its too long for you then just don't read it.

First of it

Oh no! I actually skipped a class in this degree program! I feel so bad now. It was three classes as well, not one. Sigh, I was sick though, not really sick but I had a giant headache and a sore throat and it felt like all the energy in my body was sucked up by something. That was in the morning.

I just don't know what to do now, my joints are kinda hurting and my throat is still sore as hell. Headache dissipating thanks to 4 panadol pills. Hope I'll get better by tomorrow so I can actually go out. I need to be able to go out to go find a part time job. I just realized that spending the four off days rotting is not a good way to live. Might get a solid part time job that allows me to get some extra cash, as well as securing a summer job after my exams.

Oh well, super tired and hungry now. The worst possible combo for a student living overseas. I just want some hot soup and my mommy!

PS3 in the room

Hey all again. Back for another small update. If you have my twitter then you would've known that I have moved my PS3 into my room. For you all that did not know, I'm studying in Melbourne, Australia and is living with my friends, Heng Kit and Chicky.

So with the PS3 in my room, one would normally assume that I'll be playing it whole day, everyday. Not really, it has been pretty normal. Its just there so I have been playing bit by bit. But so far, I am loving the fact that I can snuggle up under the covers and play Skyrim. I have messed up a bit with some stats in this save account in Skyrim so I will have a great time falling asleep while playing my new account.

Today is a Thursday and I have dinner in half an hour with Eugene and Lai so I will stop soon. Urgh, wine class tomorrow, I have chosen to taste the wine and I regretted it a whole lot! Not pleasent. My tongue is totally not suited for this. Just had to let that out. Bye bye for now!

Addicted, Again

Hello all, as you all know, I'm a big fan of Korean songs but I haven't had anything that caught my attention for some time. Until now! Whew seriously this song is so awesome. Not the regular flashy or catchy K-Pop style that I always listen to but somehow, better. The artist is called Neon Bunny and the song is called Oh My Prince. This song has a techno feel but not like the clubby ones that I despise, more of an 80's feel if I had to put it in words (I don't listen to songs from the 80's but it just feels like it okay!). Her voice is smooth and there is nothing I don't love about this song. To check this song out, just click the link below!

Neon Bunny - Oh My Prince


ps: My special tip is just to listen to the song and not watch the video. You can say that the video... is a bit weird.

Freedom and Badminton

Helloooo! I'm finally free guys! Well at least for another two weeks but I am free! Woohoo!! I just can't get over the fact that I don't have work to do this weekend. There are some work but those can wait. Wine assignment yesterday was horrible, so hard to finish the god damn paper. Thank god I managed to finish on time.

Then today I went for badminton in Clayton. It was very fun. I thought that I wouldn't have a guy my level there (note that I'm very bad at badminton). But thank god for Chee. If Chee wasn't there then I would be dying. Fun day.

I'm so tired now and I have to cook dinner so tata everybody!

Deadly mistake

I'm screwed. I just did a terrible mistake. Deadly! So frustrated with myself. As you know, my wine assignment is due today. Its already 8.40a.m and I have another 1.3k words to write. It would be fine if I could bullcrap my way through it but I can't. I just can't crap about things I don't even know about. So screwed. I should've just stayed up all night last night and did it. Stupid body not able to stay awake. I even set my alarm at 3. Stupid body of mine went and snoozed it all the way to 7. Thank god I don't have to hand it in straight away. I have till 11.59p.m tonight to finish it. It's gonna be a long long day. Sigh.

What happened?

Hey all, I'm just gonna say this straight, I have drank again. I have my reasons though and yes, it is a solid reason. For everyone who don't know, I'm taking a degree in culinary management. So there's gonna be some studying of wine and liquors. So yeah, I drank a few sips of wine just now for the taste. After tasting it, I feel amazed at the people who can actually point out different tastes in the wine because I totally just taste simple flavours. When I say simple, I mean flavours such as bitter and sour. Now I'm scared of tomorrow where I'll be tasting more than 5 different wines and I actually have to say my opinion out loud.

To add oil to the flame, I have another assignment to pass up tomorrow, yay! I'm quite pumped for it though. First time in ages since I borrowed books from a library. First time in Australia and I picked up 6 of 'em. Feeling very motivated now. So lets burn some midnight oil y'all.

Oh and one more thing. I sincerely don't know why, but a certain friend of mine are not talking to me at all. Not replying direct messages, not replying messages in a group and certainly haven't talked in person. This started a few days ago and I thought it was just a joke. But now, it seems like he's genuinely angry at me, and I don't fucking know why. It is totally killing me to feel this. Imagine being in my spot. If I know what I did wrong then at least I could apologize. Oh my god this is eating me up inside so badly!

Thats all for now my readers. Assuming I have more than one. I'm lucky if I even have one reader. Thanks for reading and have a good day.

Spazzing Out

Hello again, this is gonna be a short one. I need to finish my assignment a.s.a.p so Imma just say what I have to say. So last night I decided to take a quick nap at 9p.m and wake up around 3a.m to continue on my assignment. All is well and I was sleeping when I suddenly woke up. It felt like I have slept for so long so I just tried to find my phone. *Note: I was in shock because the outside of my room seems to be bright*. So yeah, finding my phone. Took me a whole minute to find it because it fell from the bed. I saw 12:50a.m and I just freaked out. I have class today at 1p.m and my puny little brain couldn't differentiate the a.m's and p.m's at that time. So after freaking out and wearing my pants, I wen't out of my room and it was still dark as hell. Looked at my phone again and that was when it hit me. Dang, I just spazzed out for nothing and I don't know why, but I slept again and now I'm dying because I slept too long and I have no time to finish this assignment. AND YET I'M WRITING SOMETHING HERE! OKTHXBYE!

Tuesday 21st of August

Hey again, sorry for the 'no imagination' title. I'm too lazy to think of a title. Yeah as you can see, it is the 21st of August. Week 5 of my 2nd last semester (assuming I don't get held back) here in Melbourne. 2 assignments to pass up this week, one is due tomorrow and another on friday. Lots of time so I won't talk about it right now.

Yesterday was the day I went out with Winnie. I personally had a blast hanging out with her. Got to eat some nice things, drank coffee, and talk a whole lot. It was great, except for the fact that we got conned by some promotional gifts companies. Don't even ask how. But yeah, yesterday was her last day. Don't hesitate to drop by again!

Today is a new day. Not so interesting as the past 2 days but still, a new day. I don't know what to do now. I woke up at 6:30a.m and watched an episode of The Newsroom (Oh Olivia Munn *DROOLS*) and played a couple of games of League of Legends. Now I just have to find out what to do. My logical side is telling me to complete my assignment that is due tomorrow while my imaginative side is telling me to find some wallpapers of Olivia Munn. Wonder which should I choose ;)

The Gatherings

Hey all. Yesterday was the first day or Raya and it was amazing. Still wish I could spend it with my family back home but it certainly came pretty damn close. It was a very good day for me yesterday. Woke up really early to prepare the food. Had everything except the rendang ready by 10 and I felt really good.

There was the case of the frozen chicken but Azeem, Atiqah and I managed to sort it out in around 30 minutes. Then we started to cook the rendang which took so damn long! Thank you so much to Atiqah, Ainshah, Azeem and Mysarah for helping with the prepartion. Really couldn't have done it without you guys. Really would've died if there was no help, 13 people came to my apartment yesterday and I'm glad to say everyone had some food to eat. It was not one of those gatherings where if you came late, you wouldn't get anything.

I find that it was a lucky day for me as well. Yesterday, when I went to buy groceries at coles. I got some 'Duit Raya'. How? Well it was the courtesy of human error. I had a total receipt of 9 dollars something for my groceries and I paid with a 50 dollars note, then I got back 50 dollars with change. Yep, I got paid for shopping. Just a good way to start my day as well.

Oh yeah, the post is called the gatherings for a reason. There's another gathering as well. It was Heng Kit's birthday yesterday. Shout out to you brother! It was a 10 pax gathering at an Italian restaurant somewhere in Carlton. Had a blast! The pizzas were great, the place was cool and best of all, the company was awesome. Just a good birthday dinner all in all.

You must be thinking oh wow that's so cool and yadidadida. Don't get me wrong, it really was a great day but I wouldn't wanna do that every week. So tired yesterday and in fact, I still am. I think I'll rather have someone else hold a gathering next time. Well that's that. I'll finish off this post with a super witty comment that will surely make you laugh or at least pull a chuckle of you.

 BORING DAYS THAT CAN'T COMPARE TO YESTERDAY, HERE I COME!

ps. I just realized it wasn't that funny but I shan't back down with my words because that is not the Way of the Man!

Selamat Hari Raya!

Selamat Hari Raya or as everyone else in the world says it, Happy Eid Mubarak everybody!! Yep, today is the first day of Syawal and I am up so early. 6:30a.m now but I'm happy. The nasi empet is cooking, got stuffs for the kuah kacang ready and I just have to go to coles for a bit to get some little things for the gathering today.

Oh, if you didn't know. I kinda invited people on a whim to my apartment today for a Raya gathering or something like that. Azeem and Mysarah and some others are gonna come and cook the rendang while I get the rest done. I can't wait! Now I just have to clean my room before everyone wakes up. The room is in a mess so I guess I should get started now.

Thanks for reading and Selamat Hari Raya again!! :D

Uwaaaah

Hello. Its 12:46a.m now. Officially the last day of ramadhan and I'm so psyched! I also just woke up from a 10 hour nap. I have to say that it was super refreshing but I feel so bad now. I was supposed to wake up early and go for dinner with my friends and especially Winnie who came all the way from Sydney. I'm sorry Winnie!

About my assignment,  I finished it yesterday morning. 8.30am to be exact. Had a few bumps along the way but I'm kinda happy that I got it done in time. I shall try to start doing the other two assignments on tuesday so I won't be rushing like yesterday. Classes that came after that sleepless night wasn't very pleasent. I was yawning left and right and I couldn't even stay focused in the wine class. Thankfully I already read the reading for sustainability and amazingly I knew what the lecturer was talking about the whole class. Accreditation and Certification isn't something so boring after all.

 That's all the update for now, I shall go find something to eat since I'm soooooooooooo hungry. Bye bye.

Alarmingly Calm

Hey all, I'm writing this on a Thurday morning while I'm waiting for Heng Kit to finish showering. Got class in half an hour and I'm totally not looking forward to it. If you're wondering, I'm doing good, not really normal if you look at what I've been doing but still good.

This week is the 4th week of my second semester as a degree student. It is also the week that I have to pass up my Research Methods paper, tomorrow to be exact. Why did I bring it up? Yes! You guessed it right (assuming you know me well). I have not even started! Why? Because I am a stupid fool who's also lazy and does not think about the things he do and how it would affect his future. Quite a way to describe myself don't you think?

So I have not started my assignment that is due tomorrow. So if I count from now, 37 hours and 12 minutes. If I minus a few hours from sleep, classes, games, and other stuffs, I'm left with around around 12 hours left to do this paper. Seems plenty to me. That's why I am calm. Surprising even to me. I have to say that I'm kinda used to doing my assignments at the last minute but this is just too close for comfort.

The assignment is just 1500 words so I guess I could summon all the strength in my body to stop being lazy for just a few hours and do this god damn assignment. I better step up as well. This is just the starter. Next week I have two assignments to pass up and I don't even know what those assignments are! Sigh, sometimes I hate games for making me the person I am now. LOL who am I kidding. I love games, and I'll never stop playing 'em.

That's all for this update. Good day to everyone and tata.

My Friend

Hello again, not in a good place here. I'm pissed at my friend for what he did just now. We've known each other for more than 10 years and yet you still manage to piss me off like no one can. Once or twice of rudeness is okay because that's what good friends do. We go through the polite barrier of some sort and just be blunt to each other.

Well, that's what I thought. I personally think there's a limit to how much you can be an ass to someone without actually pissing them off. It's different for everyone. One could be pissed right away and one could even scrape through all the burns and just live life normally. I personally think that I'm just a tad easily pissed than the normal line. I can take a few jokes but some jokes are just off limits if you don't know me that well.

But sigh, I won't tell what happened since it's just wrong to that person. So I just end this stupid rant now and I shall write some other time. Writing with anger seems to be okay lol, its calming me down bit by bit. Who knew.

Till the next time, Faizal Othman signing out.

So Many Things

Hello again. Sorry for not writing for more than a week. Not because I've been extremely lazy. I was just super lazy to write anything. Well not many people are reading anyway so I guess no one will be hurt by my laziness.

So, what the hell happened this past week? To be honest a lot of things happened, mostly boring but there are some that are nice. Let's get to it then.

1. My brother.

Yes my brother came to Melbourne last week. To visit me he says but I'm not buying any of that crap. Well seeing me was in one of the reasons he came here but I just can't trust that sneaky brother of mine. No offense to him, I love him but he's just super sneaky. It was fun while he was here. Ate some free food, YES FREE! Oh my god it was so nice to not pay a single cent for food. While he was here, we played a whole lot of Fifa 12 as well. Dang I think I lost more times but it was still awesome to play with someone who's a bit better than me. Playing with Chee and Azeem all the time wouldn't help me increase my skills. No offense to you guys. Last but not least, he bought me a ton of snacks for me to get through this winter. Thank you my brother, I love you.

2. Gastronomy Class

Wooh, what can I say. I love this class. One of the most interesting subject I have ever studied. It is so broad but still so exciting to me. Last class, we watched a 20 minutes video about a guy talking about his boar and what he'll do with it while he consults some people. Sounds stupid but I actually learned something from that. To top it all off, the lecturers cooked something up for us to learn about our tastebuds and gave us a 2 course meal. SO GOOD!! It was nice of them as well to wait for me to break my fast first. Yay!

3. Assignments

URGH ASSIGNMENTS I HATE YOU. Well I have a total of 3 assignments to pass up in these 2 weeks with a total of 5000 words to be written. One about critiquing an article, one about a wine region that I have never heard before and one more about gastronomy and what does it mean to you. Its gonna drive me crazy I tell you.

I forgot what I wanted to write already so I guess I'll stop here. Thanks for reading and have a nice day/night.

Unfit

Hey all, I'm back with a boring update on my not so awesome life. It seems that I'm getting unfit. Is that even a word? I don't know but who cares. Back to the point, I'm getting so unfit that I can't even go to a 1 hour lecture class without getting tired. Is it just because I'm lacking sleep? Well sleeping for 7 hours doesn't compare to my normal 12 hour sleep routine but its enough though. Right?

Is it because I'm fasting? Well I didn't sahur today so that might the case for today. But what about yesterday? I ate a whole lot for sahur and I still got super tired. Urgh, the talk about food is making me super hungry now. Damn it.

Guess I need to hit the gym from now on. Just enough to get me back in shape for class. I forgot how tiring learning is. That is it for now peeps. Will do the old but not forgotten farewell of mine, peaches y'all.

Just horrible

Okay sorry for the super long post the other day. I just had to write all of it. Now, with this post, its gonna be so different that you might not want to read this blog ever again. But all that matters it that I think its funny and I really want people to know what I experienced.

People who were in my high school thinks I'm just a korean freak who likes to play computer games day and night. But only a few of em know that I'm a silent farter. I don't know if farter is a real word but if you don't understand, I release gas silently. As you all know, silent farts are the worst. They smell so bad that even rotten eggs seems like childs play.

With all the intro done. Here's the big story, today, I spent the day just lazing in bed. Yes, I am not proud of it but I still did it. It's a cold day so I just opted for the lazy, warmer, snuggly way of spending the day, on the bed and under the quilt. That is when the horror came, on my bed, under the quilt, I had an urge to fart. Thinking that it would just be a harmless one, I let it out. Worst mistake ever. Just after a few seconds, the area under the quilt is filled with this nasty gas that would bring tears to most people and could even possibly kill weak hearted people. It was so nasty that a skunk could be used as an air freshener.

Woah. Its okay, I already aired the quilt over and over. Haha. Wasn't that funny? If you don't think its funny then I apologise for my weird taste of humour. Well tata for now, gotta go get some food to eat before this thin body gets any thinner.

Weirdest dinner

So yesterday I went for dinner with Eugene Ho. We went to a korean restaurant near my place and it all looked okay at first, queued for seats, got 2 seats and we looked at the menu. From there on it starts to get crazy. We saw some spicy chicken wings dish that had 3 levels of spicyness. It ranged from little spicy (exact words), spicy and very spicy. Thinking that korean dishes are not that hot, we went for the spicy one. Oh and we also ordered some kimchi seafood soup to share. Then everything went normally. The waitress brought the rice and side dishes, gave water, some chopsticks and finally the chicken.

The chicken wings were bright red but we did not even  care because from our past experiences, colour does not mean anything. Without delay, me and eugene picked up a wing and just bit into it. Instantly, our face started to change. Yes, you know it. It was spicy as hell. Out tongue just burnt like crazy and there are nothing on the table that could cool us down. If you're saying water then you're wrong. Spicyness are oil based, so when the oil sticks to your tongue, it generates the heat and we all know that water and oil don't mix. Drink milk or take some bread if you want to get rid of some heat.

After 2 wings each, we had sweat all over our faces and what do you know, there's like around 12 more pieces. Then the soup came, from afar, it already looked deadly. With its bright red colour to the steam emanating from the soup itself. I was scared. But something funny happened right there and then. When the waitress gave us the soup, she accidentally spilt some on Gene's hand. Even with the hot soup on his hand, he didn't flinch because the chicken was so overwhelming. Oh I forgot to say that we sat on a 6 seater table and we were on one end while a 2 girls couple were sitting on the other side.

On that second, one of the girls, Korean I guess from her accent, said "Just eat it off your hand." and laughed. Eugene still in shock from the chicken just stood still like he didn't hear anything. I just answered "He's in shock from the spiciness of the chicken." and we all had some laugh. Here is where it got weirder. I have never done this before but we asked the girls if they wanted some chicken. Yes we were scared we could not finish the plate of wings. They took it and was in shock at how spicy it was as well. I forgot what we had talked about during the dinner but yeah, we started to talk and they gave us some beef and we gave them some chicken and we shared some laughs.

To our amazement, one of the girls said she was 25 this year. If you were there you would be surprised as well. They certainly don't look their age at all. I thought they were around the same age as me. Guess koreans are quite young looking naturally. Well after dinner we just said bye to each other and just went our seperate ways. But wait! It gets weirder. After dinner, on the way back to Gene's place. We saw them again and because it was raining so hard. One of the girls asked if we wanted to chill at a coffee place first. Out of courtesy, we accepted.

We went to Melbourne Cental's Max Brenners. A chocolate franchise of a cafe I guess. You must be thinking I hit the jackpot but hell no. One of the girls decided to make it more awkward by leaving her one friend to us and went back home to change or something. Yup, it was super weird. Then to add more weirdness, the girl even treated me and Eugene coffee. It was crazy I tell you. Even with all the weirdness, I and Eugene didn't feel that weird at the moment. We just talked and talked and talked. For almost 2 hours till the friend reached again. To our amazement, that girl totally changed. Before, she didn't have any make up on but when she came again, she looked like a totally different person. To top off all the weirdness, we found out that the one who just came back was actually 31 years of age.

Only after 2 hours at the coffee shop that we left and said goodbye for good. But it was all weird I tell you. Even if someone told me this would happen last night, I'd probably just laugh at him and say he's full of crap. But it did. Weird.

After a few days

Hi. It has been only a few days since I've said that I've fallen for someone. Make no mistake, I really did fell head over heels for her but I think there is nothing I could do but watch her from a far. Sounds sad, I know. Can't be helped I guess, from what I've learned, she is far too good for me. I mean, she's quite religious and the fact that I might not even have a chance because I am not in the same religion as her is already frightening.

There's also the fact that I might have screwed it up by rushing it with getting her phone number too early. That's all on me folks. I am totally clueless in the art of woo-ing a woman and I'm afraid even after this, I still know nothing. Sigh.

I wish I could just meet a girl who plays game and understand the awkwardness of a shy geek and accepts that. That's a bit too much to ask but I'll just ask for it anyway. Who knows? Maybe the perfect girl will just pop into my life. Maybe the one I'm liking now would actuallt give me a chance. Maybe I would even be alone forever. Can't leave that one out. Well I'll just have to wait and see.

Thanks for reading and I'll try to update more of this blog soon.

Daydream

Why hello there good stranger. Today is the first day of classes for me in this semester. Only one class today and I found out that I have the attention of a puppy. I'll listen for a second and something will come up in my mind and after a few moments, I'll be listening again. If its for one or two times then its okay buy I had more than a few.

It was like I was daydreaming through half of the class. The subject is research and all I can remember from the class is that research is the process of discovery or some crap that sounds like that. Hah, guess I'll need some extra time in the library for this subject.

On another note, I think I'm a freak for some stupid reason that I'm not gonna tell. You must be thinking I'm a retard for only telling a small part of a story and not revealing the rest. Well you must understand that there might be a chance that someone I know is reading this. If they found out the whole story, I'll be considered a sad fool my entire life. Good to know right?

Okay that's all I guess. Ciao all.

Patience is Virtue

Hello all again. I'm doing well here even with the killer ulcers in my mouth. I didn't know why I ate nando's tonight. Just a horrible decision there. Enough about that. Lets get into today's topic, patience. Well I have known all along through many stupid mistakes and some by random luck that patience is virtue. But in this particular day, it's different. Today was a normal day for me. Emphasis on the words 'For me'.

The day started at 12am when I'm playing DoTA 2 and LoL all night up till sahur. Then I realized I had nothing to eat and I just drank water (again), sigh. But then I woke up at 3pm or sometime around there and I saw some messages on my phone and replied them all. Understand that I won't be saying the name but I'm hinting that the someone was inside the bunch (Read the last post if you don't understand, thank you).

So as a not so normal human being. I thought that this interaction is normal even if I don't know that person well enough. Right? Well to my amazement, I was wrong. A few hours after that, I got a message from a friend of mine that introduced us, asking what did I do. After explaining myself, I found out that rushing into this was wrong, so wrong. Some friends said that I should wait a while but I just thought that it was a stupid idea and apparently I'm the dumb one here. The person actually asked my friend, why am I texting her all of a sudden and its weird for her to get messages from a random person she just met.

That went quite well, no? Guess not. I shall not say anyting that happened after that because it's boring. Oh well. So I shall stick by this rule now. Be patient. Do not rush into anything. Take some time to think before acting. There are times that one should just be spontanious but that is not the case here. Quite a long post for something so minor. But I don't regret anything. I've learned something and I think telling people would make me less shy.

Oh wow

Oh wow. Didn't know I still have feelings left in my soul. I actually am blushing when I'm thinking of her. Wow. I'm just surprised. Smiling like a tard here while I'm writing this. Who would have thought that I, Faizal Othman could fall for someone properly again. Wow.

and on a totally unrelated topic. I have 4 ulcers in my mouth now, 3 on the lower lip and 1 on my tongue. Sucks so badly. I can't even eat in peace because it hurts like a mother flipper. Urgh. Why did you come when I'm starting to fast. I hate ulcerssssss!

That time again of the year

Hello and Happy Ramadhan to you. Yep, its that time of the year again. Where muslims have to fast for a month. I'm not that religious of a person so I shall not delve deeper into that. What I'm gonna talk about is mostly things that I know of and things that are happening to or around me.

Today is Ashley Wong's reunion / birthday party thingy. I really don't want to go since its gonna involve food which I cannot eat. To add salt to the wound, I'm already feeling hungry and its only 11.38am. Another 6 hours to go peeps. Thank god its Australia, if I was still in Malaysia then it would've been 8 hours.

I have only myself to blame though, I participated in something I should not have last night and stayed up so late plus I only had a cheeseburger to eat for sahur. Well I won't dwell on that much longer. Gotta do some productive things around the house now to keep me up so tata for now.

Another small update

Why hello there little stranger. I'm doing good here in Melbourne if you're wondering. Getting used to the sun setting down so early and I'm trying to motivate myself to work for the money. I need the money I tell you. BADLY!

Where? Secret Recipe Melbourne Central of course. I need it for future plans that are not yet concrete. I just need to send the paperwork tomorrow. TOMORROW FAIZAL!! IF YOU DON'T THEN YOU ARE JUST A LAZY BASTARD. Heh. Sorry for the lame ass motivational rant on my own post.

Anyways I'm just trying paragraphs again. Just to see if it'll look more organized. It really looks better right now but I think that the paragraphs are too short. Oh well, this might make me write more. So lets move to the checklist.

Things I need to do:

1.  Send the stupid paperwork so I can start working.
2.  Improve my english. (It is getting worse I tell you)
3.  Make sure I balance my work and studies well.
4.  PUASA!!

Rude much?

Wow, never have I been treated rudely like this. Its just... Wow! I can't believe someone would even be this rude. The story starts like this. I have been playing DoTA 2 casually these past few days in Melbourne because I just felt like playing. I didn't even ask for your help and I certainly didn't asked to be treated like this. You know, transitioning from LoL to DoTA 2 again was super hard just because the game are played based on different mechanics. Sure both of them are MOBAs and both of them similar but have you tried playing LoL? If you have then you would know how different it is. So shut the fuck up about my lack of skill when it comes to DoTA 2. Its just sickening to get sneered at by people like you especially when you don't even dare to say that I suck and just kick me out without any prior explanation. I would be fine if you have just said "Oh sorry Faizal, I got another friend" or "Faizal, I don't think you're good enough and I want to play with better players.". Its just rude to not say anything and kick me out.

Ngerh, well I'm not even angry anymore. I know I've done something similar to people but it just felt so bad to at the other end and I shall apologize to people that I have hurt in a similar way. Now I know why people are reluctant to play LoL. They just feel that pros will just treat them like retards and they'll end up quitting. That's what I'm feeling now. But alas, I shall not quit! I shall try and play both LoL and DoTA 2 but I won't be expecting much from you, kind sir.

Raindrops keep falling on my head

Rain. A wonderful phenomenon. It helps the world cool down and also water plants or crops for us. Guess its a blessing that its raining today. I won't be spending more money than I should and I can finally stay at home and just rest. Yay!

Refershing kind of tired

Woo, second night in Melbourne and I'm spending more time going out than a week in Malaysia. It feels so refreshing to go out and walk without getting drenched with sweat. Guess what? I'm also walking everywhere! I gotta admit that I need some time before I get used to walking everywhere again. But it feels good, walking everywhere. Makes me feel... healthy and refreshing.

I'm going to go out again tomorrow for lunch so I'm gonna have to sleep now. Thanks for reading and I'll see you next time on The Adventures of Faizal the Skinny Freak. :)

Back Again

Hey, I'm finally back from Malaysia. I'm sorry that I have been absent for about 2 months. That is because I didn't remember my blogger password hence I could not write anything haha. So now I think I shall try to write a lot more and maybe you'll even find something interesting here.

Till then, peaches :D

Wee?

Hoorah! In officially 7 hours and 50 min I'll be flying off to Malaysia! Super excited to finally get to see my parents again and feel the warmth of the Malaysian sun!. Not gonna talk too much about it. Will try to write more when I reach home. Wish me a safe flight.

Oh God Why

Today, is the day I finally beat my record. Record of what you ask? Of sleeping for the longest time!

Okay okay, you might think I'm stupid for having this record. But my previous record was already pretty stunning. It was 20 hours of continuous sleep! Not anymore though, I finally broke it with 21 hours and a few minutes. Fuuuh.

Gotta admit, feeling kinda stupid now. Super tired plus I woke up at 4am. I dunno how fucked up my sleeping cycle is now. The tired part is also disabling me from doing my assignment. 3000 words only though, no problem. I just wish I'll do it soon enough. I just can't procrastinate enough apparently. Just when I'm about to open Microsoft Word, that's when new vids on Youtube are out, or friends are online for a game of League of Legends. If I really don't have anything else to do, I eat and sleep right after. Stupid stupid me.

Oh well, less than a week now till my flight to Malaysia. Haven't completed my assignment, haven't packed, haven't even bought any souvenirs. I'm starting to question myself, should I even buy the souvenirs? It's only some shits that I'll be giving to a number of people. The only ones I care about won't even mind actually. But I just think that it sucks to have to buy stuff for people when one is coming back from a foreign country. Waste of money and time, and it's also freezing cold nowadays. I hate going out (alone) in the cold. If it's a bit warmer then I don't mind. Winter is coming! Luckily I'll be in Malaysia. Heh :)

Counting Down The Hours

Hello there everyone. I'm back with some nonsense. Doing good here if anyone's asking and if you're reading this then I hope your doing good as well. I am super tired right now. Yesterday I woke up at 8pm, don't ask why and I'm still up right now. It's 12.34 am if you're wondering. Around 28 hours awake here.

My mind is spacing out every few minutes and I don't want to sleep right now. The Manchester Derby is gonna start in 4 hours 30 minutes and I'm afraid if I sleep then I won't wake up in time. The horror!!!
I remember the last time I watched the Manchester Derby, 6-1 to the Citizen. Superb match just because United lost badly. I'm not a fan of either but a game with 7 goals is just too good to pass up. Hope this derby brings more than the last one.

I shall go and stone now. Waiting for a game in League of Legends. If people are willing to play with me that is. I'm basically a doll with working eyes and hands. Sigh. Come on time, pass by quickly!

OH YEAH

OH YEAH! FUCK YOU THROWERS.

Only people who plays MOBA's (League of Legends mostly) will understand this . Sigh.

Clean

What a lovely Saturday this is. Isn't it? I didn't sleep last night because my sleeping times are all fucked up now. So now I'm trying my best to fix it. The last time I tried to fix it, I ended up sleeping for 19 hours and screwed it even more.

Yesterday was kinda fucked up as well. I was supposed to go out in the morning and buy groceries and souvenirs and shit. Guess what? I fell asleep at around 9am and woke up at 10 at night. Told everyone I took a nap at 4 and woke up at 10 to get them off my backs. Couldn't handle anymore "You're crazy!" or "What the hell is wrong with you?".

It's 11.42 right now and I'm actually going to a Bersih rally in the afternoon to help Chee with his assignment. To be honest, I don't have a clue to what Bersih actually is. Just know that the government of Malaysia is opposing the rally. Meh~ Came to Australia to get away from Malaysia and all the crap but lookie here, the shit can even get this far. Who would've thought?

Alright then, enough with this ramble, I'm on a caffeine high from the strong latte I just had. Still tired as hell but high as well. :O

WEESNAW !! (need something to end the post without leaving it hanging.)

ps. If you don't know weesnaw. search for it along with spongebob in google. :)

19 hours

Oh my god. I actually slept for 19 hours straight. I'm not shitting you. I don't know why but yesterday I was super tired. So I decided to take a nap and wake up after 3 hours or so. Who would've thought I'll be waking up the next day. Wow. Super hungry now so I shall find something to eat.

Wake Up

Good morning everyone. Yes, I just woke up. It's 4.45 pm here in Melbourne and I've woken up late once again. It's just not possible for me to wake up early anymore. Stupid League of Legends keeping me awake at night.

Luckily it's not like yesterday. Yesterday I woke up at 6.30 and just ditched two plans and one of em was a freaking date as well. Argh damn it. No worries, I got to postpone it to after this. So I shall go now because I need to shower and shit. Yep, literally shit. Bye.

Noisy and Boring

Damn, went to a club called.... err.. whatever just now. It was totally lame. So small, so noisy and just plain boring. Nothing to do there except sit or dance. Because of my insufficient skill in dancing, I opted for the first option. But I still went to the dancefloor a few times. Just couldn't have much fun. But Faizal, in a club, you should drink so you could enjoy the night more. Well, I have been sober for a few months I think. I only had coke tonight and I'm actually proud of myself. But still, a couple of glassess of chivas would be nice.

Oh well. Not going to go clubbing anytime soon I guess. Boring as fuck when you can't drink and you don't dance. I actually want to go back and play League of Legends the whole time. But now that I'm home, I remembered that my friends are practicing by themselves for an upcoming tournament in Malaysia that I can't participate. Sad case. Sigh. Now I'm just going to watch some 'How I Met Your Mother' and 'The Big Bang Theory'. Night guys!

Lost Again

Woah, I hate yesterday and today. Have been losing non-stop in League of Legends and DoTA 2. I hate this. I need a smooth game. Fuck delay. I've been coping with delay for so long that I don't even remember what a smooth game feels like.

18 more days till my flight. 17 days left to pass up my 3000 word report. OH THE HORROR. Need to do some souvenir shopping as well.

ON ANOTHER NOTE. PLEASE, ANYONE WHO'S READING THIS. PLEASE PRAY FOR MY GRANDMOTHER. SHE'S IN THE HOSPITAL AWAITING THE DOCTOR'S REPORT. PLEASE PRAY FOR HER SAFETY AND GOOD HEALTH THANK YOU.

So much for gym

Hah, I knew this would happen. I can never actually exercise, even if I say it. I'll just get super lazy and not do anything and before I know it, the day ends and I have to wait for tomorrow. What to do? I'm just that lazy. I play games all night and not even care about anything else other than food.

On another note, I'll be flying to Malaysia on the 8th of May at 9.30am. Will be reaching Malaysia's LCCT at around 3.30. Can't wait. Less than 3 weeks. YEAH!

Free as a Bird in a Cage

Hey all, sorry for the late update. As you all know, I finally stopped working in Madam Kay's and have been enjoying the free life for 4 full days already. Let me tell you, it was super awesome. But with the good, comes the bad. I've been spending a lot of my free time playing games and I'm scared that I won't be able to complete my assignment by the 1st week of May. 3 more weeks you say? Well 9 months have passed and I sometimes still think I am in Malaysia when I wake up in the morning.

Well to say I'm super worried would be an exaggeration. I know I'll pull through somehow. The thing that's bugging me right now is that I feel like I'm stuck in a cage. Yes, I don't have to work. Yes, I have some cash to spend and yes, I can go wherever I want. The thing is, I feel like I'm stuck here. I have money but I don't really have things to buy. I have time but I don't have people to spend it with. Lastly, I have the freedom but my brain is telling me that I'm stuck in a cage, more than ever. Games and movies patches up the so called hole but it just covers it up for a second. I just want something to do!

So after hours of thinking, (Yes I spent hours thinking after writing the last paragraph) I think I'll start exercising. Not really weights and all but I think I'll hit the gym for the treadmill or even start swimming. I have time and it's healthy too! So wish me luck and I wish you all good day. Cheers.

2 more days

2 more days of work left! Can't fucking wait for it to be over. No more waking up in the morning when I don't want to. No more going to work on weekends. No more saying 'No' to my friends when they ask me to hang out just because I have work. Finally, no more being scolded and no more dramas to be involved in. I just can't fucking wait. YEAH!

YEAH!

YEAH!! My assignment is finished and I'm so not gonna look at a word document for another 2 weeks at least!

It was a roller coaster ride today. I finished my assignment after hard work only to find out I got over 20% from my similarity report. It's supposed to be below 20% or else I fail. What do I do? I panicked of course, went through the whole report to see what was wrong. Turns out, most of em were from the referencing part and some quotes.

In the end, I just e-mailed my lecturer and asked if it was okay or not. GUESS WHAT? SHE SAID YEAH IT IS GOOD AND I DON'T HAVE TO DO ANOTHER REPORT! YEAH!

Sleep Deprived

Okay no greetings here, just here to say that I haven't been able to sleep at all. Last night, I did some assignment and played some games so I didn't sleep and went straight to work thinking that I would be able to sleep right after. Turns out I was wrong.

I lay motionlessly on my bed with so many things on my mind that I couldn't even fall asleep for a minute. I just lay there for more than 5 hours till I just had enough and just decided to do something else.

My brain is hurting like hell, most probably because of the lack of rest. The assignment is still not finished but I can't even read the articles I found because my brain hurts like hell. Lastly, I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight because I have to go to work in the morning.

I'm so gonna be late with the assignment and I don't even care. I'm giving myself till Wednsday to finish it. Who cares about 4 marks. Just as long as I can do my assignment properly and not in this catatonic state. My body can't even afford a spin on this chair without throwing up. Sigh.

Fucked

I'm so fucked, 1.5k word assignment and I decided to change my topic today. Good job Faizal.

Now, I have crap loads of shit to read and the only word in my report that's already written is 'Introduction'. Really gonna die if I procrastinate more than I already am. Look at me now, writing for some stupid blog that no one even reads so that he could stall.

Well, to be honest, I'm blaming this all on the topic of human resource. I can't find shits for research and I finally reached a dead end last night. AAARGH FUCK!!! SERVICE QUALITY YOU BETTER NOT BE LIKE THAT!!!

Finally

Finally!! I have some off days to concentrate on my assignment! Come on assignment, I'm ready for you!!

Sweater = Douche

Hi all. It's me again with some updates with my life. Today, I went to the South Wharf DFO for some shopping. DFO is a factory outlet with lots of shops, to put it simply, it's a mall where everything is on sale, or something like that.

I went there with Chee and Azeem. I personally had a great time and I even bought myself a super nice sweater from Gap using my pay that I got yesterday. It's thick and comfy so I'm all set for winter or whatever's left after I come back.

So the 'sweater' part of the story's done. Here's the 'douche' part. I totally feel like a douche today. I kinda bragged about the sweater to everyone and I feel so bad about it. Okay that might not be so bad but I kinda hurt someone else's feeling as well. I felt so fucking bad to the point that I have to write this blog just to say it. I shall not put the name of the person but I am soooooo sorry and you should be mad at me. Sigh. Sorry :(

Well now that's left is to apologize to that person properly.

Little creatures

Hello. I'm finally back with some pictures of a cafe. I went to a super nice place near Chee's place in brunswick street. It's called Little Creatures Dining Hall.

The place is huge! It was most probably a factory and the way it was decorated is awesome. The coffee was good but I still prefer my restaurant's. But I really like the atmosphere and I definitely recommend anyone here in Melbourne to go there at least once.

Kinda Worried

Hello and thanks for reading this dreaded blog of mine. As you can see from the title, I'm kinda worried. Worried of what you ask? Its my assignment. Pretty worried that I might not be able to finish it.

Heck, to be honest, I'm super worried. I haven't even started on the shit. Just read a few articles and I keep thinking to myself that I'm in deep shit. Staff Management or Human Resource isn't something you just dip your toes into. It is so fucking complicated that I couldn't even understand half of what I was reading.

I'm thinking of changing the topic altogether since I haven't even started the god damn literary review. What kind of management theories should I choose? Hmm. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. Please and thank you.

Again, Peaches. (Seriously Faizal??? Peaches?!!?)

Getting Bested

Hello all. Faizal here with the update that's not worth reading. I've been super busy lately. Juggling work and school is super hard and I totally did'nt expect this. I have a 1500 words literary review due in 3 weeks and I haven't written a single word. Just read a few journal articles. It is really getting the better of me.

Work haven't gotten any better either, I'm not getting less hours like I asked and looks like I won't be getting it anytime soon. Stress all around. What mess have I gotten into by working there.

Starting from now, I won't meddle with the politics in the workplace unless I really have to. Not even when they ask you. Sigh I'm getting trashed here with work and I'm super stressed with the assignment. Wish I could just have a pause button so I can rest and do my assignments and not worry about work.

On another note, I'm so into cafes and coffee right now so if I have any free time I'll try to go to a nice cafe and take pics of the place and coffee. Assuming I have time which I don't think I'll have till I finish my assignment. Hah but who cares. I might need to unwind soon so if its not coffee it'll be alcohol, you'll know soon enough.

Woah

Woah, sorry for the double post the other day. As you can see, I was tipsy and could not think straight. Anyways, I finally had an off day after almost 2 weeks of continuous working. It was super refreshing.

So what I did was so simple actually. It started out yesterday after my last shift. Hung around the apartment and watched some tv and went out to dinner with some of my friends at Taco Bill, and yeah it was awesome! Then I played Ultimate Marvel vs Capcom 3 with friends from Clayton for around 2 hours. League of Legends came after and I finally slept at 6am. One would think I would just sleep through the whole day and rest up but no!

I woke up at 7.30 becaue I think my body is so used to waking up in the morning and I just chilled and did some research for my assignment till 10 and I felll asleep again. Woke up the 2nd time at 3 and went out with Chee, Azeem and Eugene to Manchester Press (AWESOME COFFEE!!). Then Gene brought us to eat some nice potato wedges somewhere in Swanston St, thanks Gene, it was super nice as well.

After we finish hanging out, it was 7pm so I needed to find dinner so me and Rui Wei went to Guk Bab and ate some superb Korean hot plate. Full to the max right now and I'm super happy with this off day. Actually did some work and enjoyed myself a whole lot. What a nice way to spend my long awaited off. :)

Tipsy

I'm fucking tipsy right now. My head wont stop spinning I tell you. Is this what u call being drunk?

Dah la Ada kerja esok. Sigh

Tipsy

I'm fucking tipsy right now. My head wont stop spinning I tell you. Is this what u call being drunk?

Dah la Ada kerja esok. Sigh

Threats

Threats are not really known to me. Never really used them, nor have I been threaten by someone before. It is also one of the big baddies of evil. Threatening someone is just plain wrong and being threaten by someone could lead to some nasty stuffs as well, or so I heard.

Well, imagine someone threatening you to do this or else he/she will do something that'll affect your life as you know it. Would that hurt you? Would that give you stress or even have some disturbing thoughts for example hurting them? It does to me.

I've been a victim (no other words are appropriate here :P), of this cruel thing. By my manager of course. Who else would it be. She's been ruining my recent life here in Melbourne and looks like she's fallen deeper into my hate pit. The threat was actually very simple, but she said it twice already and I'm in no good mood to just sweep it under the rug and play stupid either. Basically she threatened to fire me if I don't do a better job or ask for less hours in the work place. Well, I can't stress the fact that I've only gotten 2 off days for the past month. Yes, 2 and you're saying that I'm working so little? Fuck you bitch.

This Monday, I'm heading to William Angliss and see Julie (the lady who's in charge of this internship) and explain this matter to her. If all goes well, I'll quit that fucked up place and hope you die in a ditch bitch. Hey, that rhymes. Finally something good today. Sigh.

Edit: Didn't see Julie today, decided to suck it all up and wait till Friday and see what happens.

Hyper

I'm feeling so hyper right now. Drank a 2 shot regular latte and I'm feeling super good. Please please please let this feeling stay.

I Was Late

Hey all. Tough day today. Started bad, worsen by noon, and just plain horrible right after.

So here's my story. Woke up super late today when I wasn't supposed to. 10am to be exact. I should've wake up at 7.30 and go to work by 8. But yeah, I was late, super late. So what do you do when you're late? You rush the hell out of the apartment and ran all the way to work is what you do.

When I reach work, it's all slow but turns out I had to do lots of things so I panicked. When orders starts coming in, I panicked even more. Then my boss came, and all hell broke lose. I didn't even know what made her so angry like that. To be honest, it was my first time being late, and you caught me making bad eggs (which I was going to re-do by the way). She just went ballistic and shouted here and there. Bringing things like 'she would've done better if it was her' and 'I was asking for pay when I don't even work properly' and more.


Here comes the rant :)

I almost quit right then and there. God knows why I didn't. Regretting it right now. You said I didn't want to work and I keep asking for money? I asked once, when you gave it late. Who in their right mind wouldn't ask. Then there's the shits about you having to withheld pay to other staff for me. Well, I actually know for a fact that I was the last one to get his pay last week. So Fuck You. But who cares right? Who cares about this stupid kid who has to work for college and do assignments when all you care about is you and your money.

Anyways, I'm a rock, I don't have feelings. Sigh, saying it over and over doesn't help anymore. Going mad here. Thanks for reading.

Stoning

I.... Am.... Stoning.... On my bed right now. I'm writing this with a wireless keyboard and I can still read what I'm writing thanks to my big ass monitor. Yes, I'm bragging. Who wouldn't brag when they have a 23 inch monitor for their desktop. Man, I just can't stop saying it. Big ass monitor. Phew.

ps: I'm tired as fuck right now and more work tomorrow! I don't think I'll get an off next week either. Sigh.

Straight shift and more Ver.2!!

Hey as you can see from the title. 8-3 and 6-10 again today. Like yesterday's split wasn't tiring enough. You just had to make me work in the morning and night and morning again the next day. I'm so happy to see that you want to make someone so unhealthy die of exhaustion.

The fucked up part is..... You just had to tell me an hour before my shift ends. Thanks a lot for caring about my lack of hours and my well being :)

*Here comes Captain Obvious*

Capt Obvious: I SENSE SARCASM!

Me: Thanks for stating it Captain. :)

Capt Obvious: THAT WAS SARCASM TOO!

Me: Really?? I thought I was just talking normally :O

Capt Obvious: YES! IT WAS SARCASM.

Me: Abuden?

*Captain Obvious flies away leaving a hole in my apartment wall*

New PC Bitches!

I JUST BOUGHT A NEW COMPUTER BITCHES! YES! A DESKTOP, HERE IN AUSTRALIA AND I'M LIKING EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. HELL YEAH!

(sorry for the caps, too excited)

What the...

Hello all (if you're reading this, most probably the all means you and you only). I'm still a sad Asian boy with no functional laptop here.

So yeah, this week has been a 'what the..' week. I've been going 'what the...' the whole week. So here's the top 3.

No. 3 is about final fantasy 13-2. If you're playing and you haven't finished the game, please skip this and go on to no. 2. Well, I literally went "WHAT THE FUCK!" when I finished the game. Why? Because it said 'to be continued'. What kind of 89 dollars game ends like that. If I ever meet the one who proposed this idea. Imma smack his head till he says 'I will never do it again'.

No. 2 is about my laptop. Finally a news about my laptop! Guess what made me go 'what the..'. If you said the motherboard got busted and repairing costs 900 dollars, you're dead on. Not much to say about it. I'm too sad.

No. 1 (it's going from bad to worse if you didn't know) is finally here! It's about work of course. Here's the thing. I had a runny nose this morning so I was sucking my snot up the whole morning. Disgusting I know. Then, the chef commented with "ko kerja sket pon da sakit, baik Xya kerja dlm kitchen la. Aku kerja sorang pon lg bagus". Well, fuck you played in my head the whole time, (not the song). What the fuck right? I do not decid when I'm going to be sick. Do you think I even want to be sucking my snot every 5 seconds? Fuck!

Bad bad week. Oh, let me give you an extra 'what the..' moment. I did not get my off day this week! YAY!!

Its all for you

Hey. I know it's Valentine's day and all but the title is not about Valentine's. It's about my boss.

This is unfair. Everything is just for you ey? You can't just give me 4 hours a day for the whole week when I said in my interview that I need at least 6 hours a day. You said okay. Okay!!!

Fuck this. I'm totally not gonna get 500 hours if this continues. I need to hwlp myself and find another job. This is just too bad. Its not me at all here. I don't wanna quit because I can't take it. I just need to get the 500 hours before May and you can't give that to me.

9 dollars an hour is just shit just for your information and at 24 hours a week I'm just going to get less than 200 a week. This is all because you, yes you don't want to 'waste' money by letting me work. Not even when your head chef is asking for less hours. Let her rest for god's sake.

Look at me, rambling. Looks like rambling is all I do nowadays. I wish I can just let this all be over and get home. Sigh. 300 more hours and 2 assignments before May. Wish me luck.

Laziness

A battle against laziness is just pointless for me. I can never win. I've won A few times but it just keeps coming back. Stronger too. When will this stupid enemy of mine backs off? Who knows. I only know this, right now I am totally losing.

No Better

Well who would've guessed, I'm doing no better than with a working computer beside me. All I'm doing everyday beside work is play games on my ps3 and watch tv.

It's actually worse than just sitting in my room, staring at the screen of my laptop all day. I actually have to spend money. I spent a total of 200 dollars for just games. That's rm600 If you're keeping count. Aargh!

Then there's other stupid expenses too. The first is the infamous butt dial to my boss when I was in the kitchen. The call went straight to voicemail so no one knew. 50 dollars there but luckily it's still within my 500 dollars cap.

Another stupid one is the late fees fine. Fuck. That's just so stupid. How could I even forget is beyond me. 400 gone. Just like that.

Way to go Faizal. U have just lost 600 dollars in your 1st month of work. So with all the pay I got. I actually didn't even reach breakeven. I lost a total of 60 dollars. Sigh. I still have to go fix my laptop. Thats easily 300? At this rate, I'm not even gonna have money for flight tickets.

Broken

Well, I'm pretty sad now. It's all because my laptop is broken. It won't even start up. I'm so lost right now.

I do everything in the laptop. Chat, write, read, watch movies, play games and I even pay my bills with it. Now that its broken. I'm feeling broken too.

"if your laptop is broken, how are you writing this post Faizal?". Well I'm lucky enough to have an iPhone. Makes life bearable. What a sad tragedy. I'm nothing without my computer. I don't even know what to do after work today. I actually stared at the tv for an hour and I didn't stay on a channel for more than a minute. Yeap, I flipped through the channels and watch mindlessly.

Oh how I wish I could get an off day so I can bring it to a shop for repair. There it is, sitting alone, gathering dust, broken.

Straight shift and more

Yay, just finished my 8am-3pm shift with no break and guess what. I get to come back to work at 7pm! YAYYYYY!

ps: I was being sarcastic.

HATI

Hello hello, I just had lunch at work today and it was AWESOME!!! Its no surprise though, I had rice with sweet and sour fish and you know it, hati which is chicken liver.

Yes, chicken liver made it much more awesome than normal. Nothing could beat it. The creamy texture, the crunchy surface, heavenly. To sum it all up, I love chicken liver. Yay to chicken liver!!

Toast

I'm gonna be a piece of toast soon, tomorrow to be exact but I'm just going to be screwed. Here's what happened.

I was actually sick yesterday and I messaged my manager in the morning telling her I can't come to work. She didn't reply and I just passed out till 3pm when she called me asking me where I was. She sounded pissed so I said I messaged her telling her I'm sick. I think she didn't believe me but who cares, I was sick.

Today, today is the day where I fucked up. I woke up today quite early, 6.45am. Showered and all but I was so lazy to go to work. There was also a little bit of a headache that I had yesterday lingering. So I did the wrong thing and messaged my manager again saying I am still sick and just went back to bed. I'm feeling so bad. This is a bad habit of mine, I get an off day and I can't just let it go. I feel so bad. Argh.

Sigh, tomorrow I'm just going to get it. I can feel it in my soul. Wish me luck!

Spoons?

I've been told something interesting today. Apparently, when you make any kind of stew with meats inside, you should put a stainless steel spoon inside to make it tender. I'm still skeptical because I've never tried it myself but it does sound interesting. If it works, my tough meat stews will be gone!

Have you tried it? Is it plausible? I need a mythbuster of my own here.

Lalala Kerjalah

Lalalala! Hari-Hari kerja! Lalala la la~ Bosan dengan kerja HAHA! Lalalalaaaaa~ Itu baru kerja!!! KERJA!

If you're not familiar with the words, they're from the song La la Kerjalah by Meet Uncle Hussein. Guess these lyrics suit me pretty well right now. Haha, nice old song by a Malaysian band. Yes they're Malaysian, disbanded, but still Malaysian.

Just if you're interested, don't try this song first, go for Lagu Untukmu. Just Youtube it, everything is on Youtube.

Oh yeah....

Oh yeah, you guys must be wondering what happened to the other restaurant? The truth is, I didn't even gave it a shot. I just went for the trial at Madam Kay's and worked there the next day.

How did I remember you ask? I just read my old posts and realized, that's why. Yeah I know I'm a pathetic person because I read my own blog. So what? You err.... OH I GOT ONE! You're worse because you're reading my blog! Take that, on a side note, here's a joke for you people who are kind enough to read the blog of a pathetic person.

Why can't a bicycle stand on its own?

Because it's too tired!

Ba dum tss~ :)

Cannot Tahan Leh

For you non-Malaysians out there, tahan basically means hold or something similar. So the title just means "Cannot Take It Anymore".

Argh, I can't tahan weih. The fucking kitchen is a nightmare when I'm with the chef. I was doing so well in the morning working with Cira (the owner) but when the chef comes in at 12, all hell broke lose.

I cracked an egg wrongly and the yolk broke, minor mistake right? Not to the chef though, to her, it's like the end of the world and somehow it goes to me being an incompetent fool with nothing going for me in life. Yes, I'm not making it up, she really said that, in Malay though.

I didn't really take it to heart, she's busy and she's stressed with work. I understand. This next one is totally ridiculous though. Before she comes in, I have to actually bring out all the ingredients needed for the lunch service. I have to say there was no error there. But the chef suddenly called me and pointed to the capsicum filled container and said "Apa tu?" ("What's that?). I thought to myself, I shouldn't answer just in case she was being sarcastic. Then she said "there's already another container filled with it in the fridge", in my head, no duh~ I was the one who cut it 2 days ago, I just took the one with the less out because to me, less = old = must be used first. But apparently, somebody else, not me, cut a new batch and placed it there.

What happens after that, take a guess. Yeah, she yelled at me some more. Had to listen to her lecture about small restaurants have to be smart and bla bla bla. The best part was, I tried saying I didn't even cut any capsicums yesterday but I could only manage "Saya tak po.." (I didn't cu...) and she cut me off yelling "KAU BERANI JAWAB?"(YOU DARE TO TALK BACK?). I just kept quiet after that and just listen to her talk about all her past experience and shits you have to do when you're working in a small restaurant.

Even with all the niceness in my heart, I really hate her guts right now. Even with all the experiences you have from Maldives and whatever, I won't respect you if you have an ill heart. That might be the reason you're still not married. Don't think that all guys don't want you because you're a workaholic. Past workers ran from you, not the owner. Get the hint? Sigh.

I won't be surprised if I'm not working there anymore by the end of February. But for now, I shall suck it all up and be a rock. Why a rock you ask? I'm a rock, I have no feelings. That's why.

What time should I sleep?

My goodness. My sleeping cycles are fucked. I've been sleeping at different times everyday this past week. Today, I spent 6 hours sleeping from 1-7pm and yesterday I slept from 4am-7am. The day before was.... 5pm-1am. Sigh, I'm going crazy here. Fucking split shifts making me all tired and sleeping randomly. I AM SLEEPY BUT I CANT SLEEP NOW BECAUSE I KNOW I WON'T WAKE UP FOR TOMORROW'S MORNING SHIFT. THANK YOU CIRA FOR MAKING ME WORK AT UNGODLY HOURS. Sigh

1st week of work

I've officially finished my first week of work here in Melbourne. Saying it's all okay would be a good summary of the experience, with some extra pros and cons here and there.

Let's start with the pros :-
1. I can eat whatever on the menu which is awesome because the food there are deliciously delicious.

2. I get to finally speak some Malay with other Malays here in Melbourne. It's a refreshing feeling to be conversing with other people in your mother tongue after months of English.

3. TEH TARIK AND LATTES EVERYDAY BABY!!!!!!


Now to the cons:-

1. The chef is a bitch. Yes, she's a huge bitch with some serious issues. 1 mistake and she'll scold you like there's no tomorrow. Seriously, I know I forgot to wash the rice pot, stop bitching about it like you have a dildo stuck in your ass for months.

2. The hours are just horrible, split shift today, morning shift tomorrow and night shift the next. Get your head together please. I'm not a robot. I need some consistency. You can't just put me to work whenever you want. Sigh

Well I always make the bad things sound really bad but I think I'm actually being nice with the cons. Tired as hell now so I think I'll catch some sleep. 1 week done! God knows how long more to go!

Here It Comes

My trial is tomorrow and I'm having mixed feelings. I want to work there just for experience but I don't want to work because they are douches. But I'm desperate so I'll take whatever I can and not be picky.

Today, I am feeling sick like a dog. My head is spinning and my joints are sore. I feel nauseated and the only thing I feel I can eat now is bread. Some chicken porridge would be so awesome right now. Ate some panadols just now so I hope it'll just go away before tomorrow.

Almost 40

Whew, tired as hell here. I have gave my resume to almost 40 different establishments in 2 days. No callbacks so far but I do have 2 trials on Saturday and Wednesday. Both aren't in the 'I wanna really get this one' category but I can't complain now can I?

The first one is at Madam Kay's on Russel's. It's a small Malaysian restaurant and it really does look good from the outside. When they said I could have the interview right there and then, I was ecstatic. Turns out the chef there is an ass. She's from Malaysia too, but she was all "I don't want to go around teaching you when I really need a cook." and "I know you said okay but I don't want you to run away after a week". I know I don't look like a capable person in your eyes but have some respect. You really have some trust issues and what's with the hours and pay. I know I'm desperate but 3-5 hours a day with only 9 dollars an hour is just shit. Sigh. (By the way, those words that she said was actually all in B.M)

The second one is actually way better in terms of first impressions and it is also a Malaysian restaurant. The lady was all nice and asked me how I was doing and was actually nice enough to ask me what day I want to do the trial while the other one just said Saturday and said it must be a Saturday, they just leave it to me to come or not. But I didn't have any interview here though, it was all talking from the other side of the counter. You must be thinking, why bother with the first one, just go for this. Well it is actually my ego who's stopping me from taking this job. I might seem a little racist after this, but it's juts this, they are only Indians there. I don't mean any ill intentions towards Indians, one of my best friend is an Indian too (Love u Ranessh). I would just look totally out of place there, and as bad as it sounds, I don't want to sound lame to my friends here in Melbourne. I know you're saying "Fuck, he's a racist.", but before you do, think about it yourself, what would you do if you're in my shoes. It's actually eating me up inside here. I'll just have to go to both trials and just choose which one has the nicest environment to work in.

Just so you know, my desperation does not affect my choices in the 2nd one. It's just my pride. The 2nd one actually looks like the ideal choice right now but yeah, can't decide with just these right? Hope these trials goes well and wish me luck please. I really need some.

Rain

Fuck it, just when I get all pumped up. Its raining, heavily too. Why oh why must you rain. Sigh, let's wait till 2 o'clock and see if its still raining. If it is, then god just doesn't want me to pass. Argh my mom's so gonna be pissed at me. Fuck!

IM GOING TO GET THIS JOB

OKAY! I AM GOING TO GET A JOB BY THE END OF THE WEEK!! I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES!!!

Here's the thing. If I don't get a job by the end of January, I'll fail this internship. God knows why its this way, I was told I just have to work 500 hours before July to pass but no, looks like I have to get a job before february too.

I haven't slept a wink last night, so I am just going to go out at 11 (an hour or so to go), and just give my resume everywhere. Hope it'll land me a job. God forbid if someone rejects me again. Twice is enough for me.

May peace be upon you. Please, wish me luck, I need it, BADLY!

Long Gone

What's up strangers who are reading this. I just had a talk with the boss of the place I trialed at last week. Yup, you guessed it, rejected again. Sigh.

Looks like the dream of going back to Malaysia this winter is slowly fading away. If I don't get one before February then I should just give up on going back. The best part is that this isn't even the worst case scenario yet. If i fail to get a job before a set date in February, I'll fail this so called internship and have to differ a semester. Hell no if I have to differ and study alone for another 2 years.

FIND A JOB LAH FAIZAL. YOU FUCKING LAZY ASS!!

Worst Teppan Ever

Today, I celebrated my friend, John Poh's birthday at a Japanese teppanyaki restaurant. It was called, Miyako if I remember correctly. Here's a summary of the experience.

It sucks.

Yup, it just sucks badly. 1st, the price was just too expensive, 18 dollars for a assorted tempura plate with only 1 fucking prawn is just shit. 22 dollars for chicken teppan and they only give 2 pieces of chicken breasts.

Then there was the teppanyaki guy. Sir, you sucked balls, even I could do better. Who cuts a frigging omelette and makes it fly everywhere. The taste of the food wasn't even good.

Well, all in all it was just sucky. But it was kinda fun. OH AND THE PORTION WAS FUCKING SMALL. I HAD TO EAT SOME MORE AT HOME AFTER AND I WAS STILL NOT FULL. sigh

Oh

Oh, just if you're wondering. The interview I had before Christmas flopped. They kinda implied that they were going to hire me. But I was wrong. It's all in the past though, I'm just waiting for a call from this new place. The one where I had a trial today with.

Trial

THANK YOU RUI WEI!! Finally, a breakthrough! Had a trial run at work today. All thanks to Rui Wei. He called me yesterday and said if I can work tomorrow (today) at his place and I said yes. Just reached home. Whew, tired.

Hope this goes well and I can get the job and finally get rid of this 'I can't go home lah like this' shit and continue with life here in Australia.

FUCK YOU

Yes fuck you. Well not you of course. But you, the one who never turns off your downloads. Fuck you. You know I play online games so be fucking considerate please. Even if I'm a bit selfish, I still download when no one is using the internet. Fuck!

1st of January 2012

The 1st day of 2012 guys, what the hell did I do today? Watched some awesome fireworks near Crown and the Skydeck. 10 minutes long! You can't get that in Malaysia right? That was right at the start, 12a.m. After that...... I went home and played some Marvel vs Capcom 3 with Jian Wen and the rest and slept at 4, or around there.

Guess what? I actually woke up early! 9.30 to be exact, and headed out with them for breakfast in the city. Dim Sum buffet!! Stuffed my skinny ass stomach till no prawns could enter anymore. Seriously, no prawns for a week man.

Went home and here I am now. Its 3.40pm and I actually thought I was going to St Kilda with Kit and Chicky. Well that was what I thought. Apparently when Heng Kit said "Dude, we're going to St Kilda at 3 a.". The "we're" does not include me and now I'm wondering, what will happen to us? I actually feel closer to a guy I met 2 months ago right now. Okay let me rephrase that gay sentence...... Okay can't do it, that's the straightest I can go.

The day is still young and I guess I'll call my friends back in Malaysia and wish them a Happy New Year!