Rust

The title today is rust, wanna know why it's called rust ??
Well the story starts yesterday, when i decided to dye my hair, turns out, the colour that i chose won't come out right unless i bleach it first. So bleach i did. After going through the agonizing burns and the horrible laughter of Adam's, my hair was Brown!
I was shocked at the colour cuz it was soooo brown and the sideburns seems to be blonde thanks to a certain Adam Zulhilmi. But it was all okay since i was gonna dye it again next week to the desired colour. The night went by and Monday came and i found myself hanging out with Ranessh, Joshua and Adam in SS15.
Because of those three, I was called many things such as 'Communist', 'Immigrant', 'TaeYang?' and many more but the best one of the day was Rust! Ranessh said that my hair had the colour of a metal that's rusting. Well, rust ain't a good thing but the colour is nice, so i just took it as a compliment~
Well, thats the story behind the word Rust. Whaddayanoe! it looks like one of the things in my 'To Do' list has been done! Well maybe halfway but it's all good! The next thing is taking my Driving License. The question is where?

Ranessh's House

I'm in Ranessh's house !! It's friggin hot here!! around 28 degrees? dunno but it's hellish...
Gonna start playing DoTA while listening to my k-pop in a few minutes~ =D

Last Day~

My last day of training is here!! ZozoBobo!! I'm not sure if i should be too happy because I'll be leaving all my friends there who helped me through these hellish 3 months. Oh well, it's great to be able to say "after 3pm, I'm once again a free man!".

A lot of stuffs to do after this! Gonna try dying my hair in a salon, clean the Subang house, hang out with my friends, buy presents for Adam and Nafissa, go sing k-pop with Jiun Jie in Red Box, get my license and many more. Even if it's only for 3 weeks, I'm sure I can do all of the things above, except for the license cuz obviously i can't get my 'P' in just 3 weeks, no one can.

Because I'll be in Subang, doubt I'll update my blog unless I have some me time with a computer and internet.

Woooooooooooooo~ Last Day~ Freedom and Subang, Here I come !!

Ze:A

I've been looking forward to this song for quite a while now. Thank god they released the music video today. Didn't quite understand the story plot though but still, the song is amazing!

It reminds me of the old Big Bang songs which was one of the main reasons I got hooked into K-Pop. Well, enough of this ramblings. The link to the video is down here if any of u wanna watch it.

Ze:A - All Day Long [MV]

Lifeless

I can't help it,

I feel so lifeless right now,

and i can't help but wonder why.

How do i make this feeling go away?

Someone please help me,

I cant stay like this anymore.

Even when i look at the bright near future,

I still can't stop myself from sighing,

and I fell further in this endless hole that i dug myself.

They say that your soul is everything,

now, it seems like I have nothing,

my soul has disappeared,

even after nights of searching,

it's nowhere to be found.

I wish this feeling would go away,

I wish that i could go back to my former self,

if not, at least make it so that i could be happier,

even by a little bit.

Sigh

Pastry

Pastry Kitchen.. After almost 3 months of pressuring the human resource, i finally got into the pastry kitchen. It was my 1st day in that kitchen today and it was awesome! Though it was awesome, there's still some downside and one of them is the friggin morning shift! i have to go to the hotel before 7 !! and i dun have any transport back home after my shift finishes, i have to wait till either my dad or mom finish work and pick me up. Now is the time i really wish I've taken my license. Secondly, I miss the extra break hours i had in the Staff Kitchen. Boy do i really need that break!

But who cares!! The perks are just too awesome!! I get to eat the pastries that i made and i even get to learn plenty of new stuffs and it was just a day in there! For example, i learned that it's soooo easy to bake a muffin and standing in the freezer for more than 10 minutes could be hazardous! Seriously, my ears was hard!! i mean it's solid and not squishy. It hurts alot but the pain went away once i eat the strawberries on the table! XD

2 weeks left. I have 10 days of work left !! Wow can't believe 3 months flew by just like that. Plenty of things to do as well after the training but i'll mention it later in another post~

Dreams

2 nights ago, i, along with kutiq, adam and ranessh all talked about The Amazing Race Asia. We were all hyped up to register but after mayb an hour of imagining, we realized that we need a passport to register but kutiq doesn't have one. So the idea went down the drain, well not down the drain but it's postponed till next year. I doubt if we'd really remember and sign up. After that i tried to go to sleep but i began wondering about life. 1st it was if i really went into The Amazing Race Asia. Then it was what will i do after i finish my diploma, will i continue my degree, if so where? Or should i work instead? Life really gets complicated once u grow older, I've always known that it would be complicated but real life seems to be harder and more complicated. I wonder if i would be able to continue without any regrets. I've made some really stupid things last year and really wished to re-do it again but alas, it's never gonna happen so i'll just accept all that I've done. And in the process of wondering about, I realized that i don't really have a real dream. Well i do want to be a chef, but it's just wanting and it's not a dream i have. Getting a girlfriend? Well a fool would have that dream, it's just a want for me. I want to have a girlfriend and not dream to have a girlfriend. Have kids? well maybe I've though about it but i'm still too ashame to share it all with people. So, what are my dreams? I truly don't have any idea. So this year, ( I know it's already March but it doesn't hurt to have a 'new' year resolution this late) I'm gonna try my best to find a dream i can chase. I maybe even already have one but haven't realize it yet. I'm also gonna try my best accomplish the dream if i ever get to find one. So this is dedicated to all of you who can't seem to find they're dreams yet. Try hard, Do your best, oh, it might sound like i'm being a bastard to tell this to people when i don't even have one myself. Well who Fucking cares. Good Luck to all with dreams or dreamless people.

Sorry for not using paragraphs. I'm a lazy bastard. well at least i realized i'm a lazy bastard and i'm happy with it. According to what the 'people' say, acceptance is the 1st step of rehabilitation. =D