Dreams

2 nights ago, i, along with kutiq, adam and ranessh all talked about The Amazing Race Asia. We were all hyped up to register but after mayb an hour of imagining, we realized that we need a passport to register but kutiq doesn't have one. So the idea went down the drain, well not down the drain but it's postponed till next year. I doubt if we'd really remember and sign up. After that i tried to go to sleep but i began wondering about life. 1st it was if i really went into The Amazing Race Asia. Then it was what will i do after i finish my diploma, will i continue my degree, if so where? Or should i work instead? Life really gets complicated once u grow older, I've always known that it would be complicated but real life seems to be harder and more complicated. I wonder if i would be able to continue without any regrets. I've made some really stupid things last year and really wished to re-do it again but alas, it's never gonna happen so i'll just accept all that I've done. And in the process of wondering about, I realized that i don't really have a real dream. Well i do want to be a chef, but it's just wanting and it's not a dream i have. Getting a girlfriend? Well a fool would have that dream, it's just a want for me. I want to have a girlfriend and not dream to have a girlfriend. Have kids? well maybe I've though about it but i'm still too ashame to share it all with people. So, what are my dreams? I truly don't have any idea. So this year, ( I know it's already March but it doesn't hurt to have a 'new' year resolution this late) I'm gonna try my best to find a dream i can chase. I maybe even already have one but haven't realize it yet. I'm also gonna try my best accomplish the dream if i ever get to find one. So this is dedicated to all of you who can't seem to find they're dreams yet. Try hard, Do your best, oh, it might sound like i'm being a bastard to tell this to people when i don't even have one myself. Well who Fucking cares. Good Luck to all with dreams or dreamless people.

Sorry for not using paragraphs. I'm a lazy bastard. well at least i realized i'm a lazy bastard and i'm happy with it. According to what the 'people' say, acceptance is the 1st step of rehabilitation. =D